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ughh [25 Dec 2004|07:00pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | i'm not okay - my chemical romance ] let's see ... -still no boyfriend -found out that no one in the show thinks i should've gotten seymour -read someone's journal comments and found out that other people don't think i should've gotten seymour also -fought with my dad and brother cuz they were fricken loud as hell at 1:30 in the morning -they both were loud and kept me up until after 2 -my mom's blaming me for that whole incedent -family is over and i feel out of place -and once again i'm lonely for the holidays ... merry xmas huh? yeah whatever ... worst xmas ever. 7 would like to ][ dance

AHH! [21 Dec 2004|07:17pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | little shop soundtrack .. even though i don't have it lol ] omg ... i got Seymour in Little Shop!! this is the first lead i've ever gotten! i'm so excited. i was like shocked when i opened the envelope cuz i thought Nick was getting it, cuz quite frankly he deserves it. but omg ahh!! lol and i made the variety showww! i'm tap dancin bitches. go see. jan 14th. anywhooooooo life's been ehhh. it totally sucked last week for a bunch of reasons i'm not getting into but this week looks like a good one. i'm happy. so anywayssss this is the cast for Little Shop: Seymour: Me Audrey: Laura Bobek The Dentist: Dan O'Connor The Plant: Kevin Black Urchins: Georgeanna Piazza, Jessica Gray, and Melissa Jean. Mushnik: i have no idea lolol Ensemble: a whole bunch of sexified people and some freshman kid that i can't stand. if anyone finds out who got Mushnik tell me. 2 would like to ][ dance

people annoy me. [11 Nov 2004|06:23pm] [ mood | annoyed ] ok people. if u really do miss me then fucking invite me somewhere when ur going out with everyone. jesus i barely fucking see u then u get a chance to see me and u forget? don't give me the whole oh we forgot about u cuz u haven't been with us in a while. kiss my ass. zack, kiss my ass as well. on a lighter note. i made a myspace. why? cuz i'm a loser like that. link is in my profile bitches. 3 would like to ][ dance

To the cast: [06 Nov 2004|10:39pm] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | hiya hiya hiya hiya - WOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP! ] To the Cast and Production Staff of Moon Over Buffalo: thank u all so much for this wonderful experience. i never had so much fun doing a show. u all helped me improve my acting ability so much and helped me grow as a person as well. Dave: sir sweats a lot! lol it's called powder let's invest shall we? i'm here to clean ur pool. BUT I DON'T HAVE A POOL! bow chicka bow wowwww lol porno movies forever Georgeanna: omg great times this year. i wasn't a brat to u! YAY! lol my whole family is in love with u. thanks sooo much for defending me against the asshole named joe. THROUGH THE OTHER DOOR! Dan: thanks for being so mean to me! lol yes i know i'm not funny :( tear tear but oh well. thanks for helpin me with my technique with things. Kate F: EAT YOUR RICE! lmao we had such good times this whole show. U LYING WHORE! U SAID U COULDN'T HAVE PIZZA! lolol love u bebe thanks for stickin up for me against the asshole named joe also. Taylor: what can i say. i freakin love u. u say the funniest things that just make my day. good times waiting for our parents who care enough to be on time right lol thanks for tying me up everynight. Kevin: our big scene was the best. i believe we stole the show with that one. we had fun backstage yelling at stage crew for random things. thankssss for helpin me wrap my costumesss! Kate H: GRAN-MAMA! our lip-synching to the scenes were amazing. we could so be george and richard. oops did dave and kevin see that? i love uuuu Sam: ahhh love u woman. thanks soo much for helpin me change. without u general patton would never be on stage. thanks for fixing my costumes and my hair too u hairstylist u. by the way. ur marrying me. thanks to everyone who came. u all made me feel special when u cheered me on! YAY! lol ok i'm done ranting. toodles! and if u didn't see the show .. u suck. 7 would like to ][ dance

hehehe [26 Oct 2004|07:57pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | foolish games - jewel ] well joe seems like no one likes u enough to agree with ur anonymous postings. i always IM u? lmao u always IM me asshole and i tell u to leave me alone and u get pissed. now ur just lying. and my brother said it right. "grow a fucking pair" instead of being anonymous let's try talking to my face now shall we pussyboy? anyways. so just got over pneumonia for a week. kinda blew. takin meds and stuff now. workin like a charm. and stuff at rehearsal is going pretty good besides the fact that joe badmouthed me while i wasn't there. once again, grow a pair. school kinda blows. mr ruck is an ass. he sent a progress report home for homeworks he didn't assign. way ta go. no wonder u teach theology. ur not qualified for anything but saying god is love. hmm what else. maybe goin to a party at leah's sunday if i know more people goin. i think that's about it. yeah. COME SEE MOON OVER BUFFALO AT ST ANTHONY'S HIGH SCHOOL! Thursday, November 4th at 7:00 Friday, November 5th at 8:00 Saturday, November 6th at 8:00. Cast: George - Dave Morissey Charlotte - Georgeanna Piazza Paul - Dan O'Connor Roz - Kate Ferguson Howard - ME! Ethel - Kate Haggerty Richard - Kevin Black Eileen - Taylor Dever (the star is tappin taylor) 20 would like to ][ dance

people suck [15 Oct 2004|08:02pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | i hate everything about u ] it's friday, and let's read people's away messages shall we? out.. be back laterrrr <3 out.. OUTTT call the cell XO school...outttt gettin rdy 2go out P...A...R..T....Y? beacuse i wannnaaa outt...celL watching 2 movies ... bbl thanks for askin me to go guys .. nice friends i have. 15 would like to ][ dance

how to: rebuild self-esteem [04 Oct 2004|03:23pm] [ mood | determined ] [ music | schadenfreude - avenue q ] self-esteem (n.) Pride in oneself; self-respect. that's as it is defined in a dictionary. if you search me you will find barely an ounce of self-esteem. so how am i going to gain it? by becoming the best in everything i do. i want to be the best singer in my school. i want to be the best actor. i want to be the best dancer. i want to be the best student. i want to be the best dresser. i want to be the best looking. i want to have pride. i want to be able to walk with my head high. i know this will be hard to achieve and it sounds stupid and it sounds cocky and arrogant. but this is what i want. i know that this will make me happy. i'm going to try my best to be the best possible. i wanna be known in my school. i wanna stand out as someone that's the best rather than a mediocre person. this is gonna be hard, but i'm gonna put my mind to it and try my hardest. i know i can do it if i try hard enough. and it will be even better with my friends' support. so wish me luck guys. i'm on my way to the top of the hill and i know i can make it if you guys help me. 9 would like to ][ dance

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!! [26 Sep 2004|09:47am] [ mood | excited ] [ music | happy birthday song lmao ] IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehe yay my birthday is FINALLY here so here's the deal. i had a family party last night and was really happy cuz i won $35 playing texas holdem along with all the birthday money. YEAH BIRTHDAY LUCK! didn't get all my presents that i asked for ... actually none besides what my parents gave me but oh well! i got money. i got: an iPod, a new cell phone, and tickets to Avenue Q! oh and an outfit that katie caitlin and nora bought me. seeing Avenue Q later on tonight. this'll be a fun evening. but i won't get home till later so i won't get much sleep for school. umm excited much? i think so ... 3 would like to ][ dance

surveyyyyy stolen from laurennn [19 Sep 2004|06:57pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | dirrty - xtina aguilera cuz i was just dancing to it for fun ] --->> Your Friends <<--- Created by AFI419 and taken 97 times on bzoink! .:->> Girls <<-:. best :: too many enemy :: danielle zito *sticks up ring finger* .. we're in a fight nicest :: mia meantest :: lauren lamarca is a bitch loudest :: lauren lamarca! quietest :: taylor bravest :: theadora without a doubt shyest :: taylor maybe .. funnest :: nina most mature :: katie most immature :: maddie! lmao most fun to shop with :: they all areeee preppiest :: hmm .. iuno goth :: well rachel is the closest to it but i'm not really friends with goths prettiest :: umm .. no comment cuz if i say someone all of them will shoot me smartest :: liz olivieri or corinne known longest :: t newest :: umm ... i honestly don't know friend before, not now :: danielle zito cuz we're in a fight wish you didnt know :: steph ... mwahahah wish you were closer to :: all the dance girlies best fashion :: all my friends can dress! riches :: umm .. no idea cutest :: caitlin tallest :: nora! 6 frickn 1! shortest :: between liz rachel and thea most high maintanance :: no clue .. cautious :: umm they're all naughty girls! .:-> Guys <-:. best :: umm .. iuno nicest :: matt lyons meanest :: walter loudest :: flynn or walter quietest :: erik bravest :: they're all brave shyest :: erik funnest :: they all suck at making jokes lmao most mature :: they're all immature most immature :: see above most fun to shop with :: umm they don't know how to shop preppiest :: none are preppy goth :: none are goths .. or i don't think so .. hottest :: ickkyyyy they're grossss smatest :: this kid i'm not really friends with is pretty smart known longest :: walter unfortunado newest :: umm iuno friend before, not now :: umm ... none? wish you didnt know :: anthony lmao wish you were closer to :: iuno i don't usually get close with guys best fashion :: they don't know how to dress lolol richest :: no clue cutest :: once again .. they're gross tallest :: walter prob shortest :: i don't like short guys .. they scare me ... IT'S CALLED PUBERTY! HTI IT! most high maintanance :: me hehe i'm my own friend cautious :: me once again heheheh .:-> Associate Your Friends With <-:. apple :: cioffi cuz she's a kiss ass! bitch :: danielle zito .. slut tampon :: thea cuz she asked me for one in mass napkin :: wtf?! flashlight :: god mwahahha kitty :: ummmmm iuno ball :: walter .. cuz he plays football with himself condom :: lauren lamarca cuz she's a slut moon :: well not friend but my cousin jessica cuz she has a round face lmaolmao water :: meeee cuz i don't drink soda tight :: umm .. ew ... but liz hahahaha flower :: nina .. why? i don't know Still need a Halloween Costume? Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! that was fun. anyway went bowling with zito heather and dawn yesterday. quite fun. but me and zito are now in a fight. *sticks up ring finger* i won cuz they all suck at bowling. i made the play at school so that's always fun and dandy. taylor and dave made it too sooo that's always cool. go sophomoressssss. really boring entry cuz i've been doin jackshit but i know u still wanna comment on the surveeeeeeey. 8 would like to ][ dance

random lyrics from broadway musicals [12 Sep 2004|01:00pm] [ mood | determined ] [ music | purpose - avenue q ] Aida: Nothing is an accident We are free to have it all We are what we want to be It's in ourselves to rise or fall We all live in extravagant times playing games we can't all win Unintened emotional crimes Take some out, take others in This should have been my time It's over, it never began I closed my eyes to so much for so long and I no longer can Avenue Q: I don't know how I know, But I'm gonna find My purpose. I don't know where I'm gonna look, But I'm gonna find My purpose. You gotta go after the things you want While you're still in your prime. Hairspray: There's a road We must travel There's a promise We must make 'Cause the riches Will be plenty Worth the risk And chances that we take There's a dream In the future There's a struggle We have yet to win Use that pride In our hearts To lift us up To tomorrow Wicked: Something has changed within me Something is not the same I'm through with playing by the rules Of someone else's game Too late for second-guessing Too late to go back to sleep It's time to trust my instincts Close my eyes: and leap! It's time to try Defying gravity I think I'll try Defying gravity And you can't pull me down! so yeah love those songs and i think these quotes from them are really good. thanks for the comments guys. i think it's funny how alli didn't comment though lmao. but whateverrrr ... wanna comment again? ok! 9 would like to ][ dance

ughh bad night [10 Sep 2004|09:14pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | welcome to my life - simple plan ] heyy so yeah love the way people find one thing as a joke and make fun of it for the rest of the day? gets kind of annoying even when it's not even close to funny. there's a saying i like to use and i'm gonna paraphrase it. "if you don't like the way something is done, do it urself." i was giving directions today and the people i was giving directions to blamed getting lost on me even though i didn't tell the person to go a certain way. then the whole time they were nitpicking at my directions even when i got directions from someone else to get somewhere. NOT MY FRICKEN FAULT WE GOT LOST IF I'M NOT THE ONE WHO GAVE THE DIRECTIONS! ughh so that was annoying me. i was supposed to have a nice time today but i didn't. it all just sucks whenever something like this happens cuz i was waiting for this the whole week. i was so excited. then it all comes crashing down and i get pissed off. then people wonder why. they say "ian you can't take a joke." oh i can take a joke. to a certain extent. when it becomes up to the point when that's the whole conversation that we have then i get pissed off. if the only words that come out of ur mouth to me are about this joke, then it's both not funny and annoying. people need to get this through their heads. if people think i have no sense of humor, ur totally wrong. anyone who knows me know that i have as much of a sense of humor as the next guy. it's just when it comes to annoying little jokes i wanna kill that person. "oh but ian i was just teasing you." teasing means doing it once or twice at the moment then ur done with it. not once or twice per second. it's not like anyone's gonna care bout this cuz no one reads this anyway besides alli maybe. but whatever i'm done with this entry. comment. oh wait only alli will. 9 would like to ][ dance

?? [06 Sep 2004|07:31pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | easy as life - aida ] heyy soo basically went to the beach today with liz corinne pat doug paul josh greg and andrew. quite fun. bees everywhere but other than that it was pretty good. we binged on ice cream. and then me greg and andrew had a jumping contest off of the swings but me and corinne had the best time on the swings and playing uno. then my dad came a lil late so corinne waited with me since she's my bestestest buddy and we talked a lot. she said she'll even see if she can visit my school!! YAY!! school starts monday but i have orientation thursday. so it's all good i'm gonna visit the smithtown people. i'm so tired right now. and confused. the whole day and situation right now is confusing but i'm not gonna post it just cuz people i don't wanna read this might. so yeah comment guys. dance

yaay! [05 Sep 2004|09:34pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | one thing - finger 11 ] pat's home!! hehe he came home today for the labor day party but he's leaving tomorrow. but that's ok he's home right now! lol soo went to a party last night at kev's (who i haven't seen in a million years) with liz rachel pat eric greg joe and some other people i didn't know. it was ok. massive amounts of west nile breeding in there. it was fun though. i haven't seen these people in a while cuz i go to st a's now. but it's all good. greg threw liz in the pool cuz she decided it would be fun to throw water on me and him. i would've thrown her in if i had strength. but no =( the gym has failed me. partaay today. it was good. drove in the car with martin and had a near death experience. it was ok though cuz almost doesn't count. played holdem and i came in second to last. we played for real money. so i lost 5 bucks but it was my uncle's anyway so that's ok hehe. i beat someone!! rob signed on yesterday so i ripped him a new asshole. he deserved it and i think what i wanna do to him deserves him to die too but people are saying it's messed up and i'm just sinking to his level but whatever. i'll still think about it. school starts the 13th and i have orientation thursday so i gotta get prepped for dress code again. ughh uniform and all. lovelyyy. whatever i'm a sophomore now i get to be a stuck up asshole. booyah! anyone know how to get to the coldstone's in hton village? tell me if u do cuz i might be goin there friday. 3 would like to ][ dance

ehh decent day [02 Sep 2004|07:55pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | what's good for me - lucy woodward ] hey guyss. sooo last night i was trying to gather people to come with me to whitman but no one wanted to/could go so i'm probably gonna end up goin monday. gettin excited though =) went to the gym today and then took the dogs to get groomed and what not. nina liz lauren and tee came over for like 10 minutes. strange people. nina decided to spray my deoderant everywhere and at people so my crotch now smells like right guard extreme. then liz played my music and i raped nina. then they all had to go and i was like poo cuz i've been bored. i have orientation in a week. so i get my schedule, take school picture/id picture, get books, and fill out some cards. always fun. i don't start school till the 13th unlike most schools who start tuesday or wednesday mwahahah. so yeah i get some more time for summer reading yaaay. umm what else ... oh dance starts on the 13th too. gotta work on my technique so i can get into senior jazz technique class. but right now i'm still in every other senior competition class cept tap cuz i suck at/hate tap. and i'm in the senior jazz funk class so that's good. and i get to assist this year. a jazz class and maybe a hip hop class. so yaaay. and i haven't seen my dance girls in a while. well actually i saw nicole, heather and wren on monday at viper and i saw courtney the next day for 2 seconds while nicole picked up her phone from my house. but other than that i haven't seen them. =( leave comments pleease i want more than one commenter on this entry lol. 2 would like to ][ dance

ahh didn't update in a while! [31 Aug 2004|01:53pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | good morning baltimore - hairspray ] hey guys i'm back. here's the upDIZZATE! soo took pat to college on saturday. he's got a reeeeeeally nice dorm. he's in a triple but only one of his roomates was there. he's really clean so that's muy bueno. then we saw hairspray (amazing!). it was soo funny and the musack was great. soo went to viper last night with heather and nicole. wren ended up being there too. so yeah it was really fun and i touched 17 asses. oh yes. so we were dancin up a storm cuz hey we're dancers lol and people kept on going through where we were and it got really fricken annoying cuz it was so croweded. so yeah that was fun too. aaaaaaaaaand scene. 3 would like to ][ dance

ahh!! [22 Aug 2004|04:08pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | what is this feeling - wicked ] ok people here's the dilleo. my parents aren't holding up their end of a deal *poutie face*. i gave them my digicam so that i could get an ipod and a new phone. but that hasn't happened yet ... *pout face again*. i'm trying to get to see Aida again. this time with lauren cioffi cuz she never saw it yet and it's closing soon ... =/. i wanna see it again cuz adam pascal = amazing and it's such a great show. so sad too. so gotta convince my parents to buy me tickets cuz my dad's like u already saw it so it's a waste to see it again. i'm like umm no. anyways that's what's going on with that. school is starting soon, and i still didn't do my summer reading. i really should start. a tree grows in brooklyn is soo long. ethan frome isn't that long though. so that won't take up too much time. DANCE PEOPLE: when's registration and do u think i could sign up to assist? =/ i wanna get some of that done cuz it's good for college if u have that done. so inform meeeeeeee =) ok i'm done. 2 would like to ][ dance

back from bahamas [18 Aug 2004|11:18am] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | a new life - jekyll and hyde ] hey guys i'm back from the bahamas. not a really great trip for me just cuz i was under 18 and all of my cousins cept jeff and jess are over 18 so they went to the 18 and over club and they did all the things that we had to be accompanied by a parent and stuff. so at night when my cousins went to the club jeff usually went into his room to read and what not and jess didn't wanna go to the club that we were allowed into cuz she doesn't like clubs so i got bored went to my room and slept. the highlights of the trip were dinner and jet skiing. every night at dinner we were the loudest table in the room and we were laughing soo hard that one night literally everyone at the table was crying. the first night at dinner i was allergic to both the things i ordered. shrimp scampi (the shrimp was in the shell so i was getting itchy and my throat started closing) and warm chocolate cake (best tasting thing ever once i had the guy get me one without nuts on the top of it). so that was pretty good. we went jet skiing at cocoay, the boats private island. it was soo fun. i went with my cousin hana and we were the lightest people on the thing so we were flying all over the place. i even almost pulled her off a couple times. so that was fun and then afterward my hair was all up from the wind and i looked like i was stuck in the 70's. so yesterday i didn't do much. it was my dogs bday so we had a mini party kind of (my family rocks i know.) and then i just went to sleep. i know u wanna comment =) 6 would like to ][ dance

feeling much better =) [11 Aug 2004|03:00pm] [ mood | relieved ] [ music | the reason - hoobastank ] hey guys i'm feeling a lot better now [thank u corinne and liz]. so i was bored yesterday, went to the gym. lifted .2 pounds and was watching all the people lifting like ... 200. i was like hehehe i could SOOO do that. not. afterwards liz tells me we're going to corinne's to hang out and i haven't seen the two of them all summer and i barely see them now that i'm at st a's. so i was like okely dokely. got to corinne's and we all exchange hugs cuz we're like I MISS UU and all that good junk. go upstairs to her middle floor where her piano is and decide to play with the sounds. quite fun hehe. we made a machine gun kill a bunch of people screaming and liz was having some fun pushing the buttons. then liz found my dance shoes in my bag and we decide to dance. we do all the positions in ballet cuz we're bored and then i decided to show off my flexibility and do an extension and split and liz tried to and corinne killed her. so we go into the basement and call pat some more and liz is a lesbian with a deep voice. i killed corinne with the pillow sausage and she got all freaked out and liz was laughing for about 20 minutes. why? we don't know ... so i go upstairs to corinne's room and get the 8th grade yearbook so we can look at all the people. corinne and liz were playing mario kart. we were looking at all the people we missed and corinne was telling us a marc monroig story and we thought it was the cutiest thing ever. then we tried eating pretzels with no hands and only liz was successful one time. we decided to call pat a thousand more times with liz being a lesbian and it was quite fun. i wonder how many messages we left him ... anywaysss after that liz left so me and corinne cleaned the basement a lil bit then my dad came so i had to go. fun day =) and liz is still a lesbian. 7 would like to ][ dance

why so depressed? [09 Aug 2004|11:28pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | a step too far - aida ] yeah once again depressing entry people. if u don't wanna read it don't cuz i don't want you all to be like ok he sucks. so didn't really do anything today. listened and sang to the Aida soundtrack. i listened throughout all the songs and found that there were only 2 people who found happiness in the end, even though there was misfortune in the way. i mean, nehebka was the first character to die. that had to suck. then zoser had to have his son die. the king of nubia had to know that his daughter was buried alive. the pharoah dies unhappy. merob is killed by an egyptian soldier. amneris is faced with a life of knowing that her love died and he led her on. but aida and radames, the two characters in love with eachother, die. yeah this is so bad right? wrong. they died together. these two were buried alive in a tomb together. relying on eachother for strength they run out of air and die. together. then they find eachother in another life and fall in love once again. will i ever have that? everyone has a big fear. mine happens to be dying alone. i don't wanna be one of those people who are alone all their life sitting on their porch with a pet as their only companion. i want someone to have a relationship with. maybe later on in life someone to grow old with, but there's no one out there. i need help. i don't wanna be living life this way. 6 would like to ][ dance

another depressing entry ... don't read it if u don't wanna [08 Aug 2004|08:55pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | i know the truth - aida ] hey guys ... this is gonna be another depressing entry so if u don't wanna hear it anymore don't read it. ok so basically i'm going to add on to yesterdays about my cousins. when they got back no one informed me cuz i was playing monopoly with my other cousin. i went downstairs talked to them for a little but they still didn't know i was upset about them leaving me. someone knocks at the door and it's the domino's guy. i ask my brother where my food is and he said he didn't order me anything. i find out later that they didn't even think about me when they were ordering. (btw, my brother knows how much i love domino's cuz he gets pissed off everytime i ask him to order it for me.) so got really upset about that and went up into my room. i hear from them that they're going downstairs into the basement to eat, but they didn't tell me directly. i was eaves dropping. that got me a lil more angry cuz no one told me about this. so i'm pissed off and they go in the hot tub without me cuz i don't even wanna talk to them and then i go to sleep a lil after 1 cuz i was watching SNL. i wake up every now and then cuz they came inside and were talking and laughing really loudly where i was cuz i had to sleep in the living room with them. i fall asleep for a lil while and then they turn on the TV in the room where i was at around 3 to watch music videos. i was soo mad cuz i was dead tired and the night before i only had 4 hours of sleep. then the sprinklers came on and i couldn't sleep anymore cuz they kept me awake. but my cousins went to sleep. i was up from then till about 6:30 crying about how they pissed me off the whole day and then they wouldn't even let me sleep. i fell asleep and my mom woke me up at 8:30 to go to the city to watch Aida. now depressing love story: when i was watching Aida i almost cried. these people who were able to find love so easily and be able to die together just made me think: am i ever gonna be able to have that? will i ever find love? i mean i've never even been in any type of relationship or even on a date. sorry for the depressing entries lately people but i just haven't been having a great summer ... 4 would like to ][ dance

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