you have entered ian's brain ... don't touch anything

ughh

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 00:05:32 GMT

let's see ...

-still no boyfriend
-found out that no one in the show thinks i should've gotten seymour
-read someone's journal comments and found out that other people don't think i should've gotten seymour also
-fought with my dad and brother cuz they were fricken loud as hell at 1:30 in the morning
-they both were loud and kept me up until after 2
-my mom's blaming me for that whole incedent
-family is over and i feel out of place
-and once again i'm lonely for the holidays ...

merry xmas huh? yeah whatever ... worst xmas ever.

AHH!

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 00:29:53 GMT

omg ... i got Seymour in Little Shop!! this is the first lead i've ever gotten! i'm so excited. i was like shocked when i opened the envelope cuz i thought Nick was getting it, cuz quite frankly he deserves it. but omg ahh!! lol and i made the variety showww! i'm tap dancin bitches. go see. jan 14th.

anywhooooooo life's been ehhh. it totally sucked last week for a bunch of reasons i'm not getting into but this week looks like a good one. i'm happy.

so anywayssss this is the cast for Little Shop:
Seymour: Me
Audrey: Laura Bobek
The Dentist: Dan O'Connor
The Plant: Kevin Black
Urchins: Georgeanna Piazza, Jessica Gray, and Melissa Jean.
Mushnik: i have no idea lolol
Ensemble: a whole bunch of sexified people and some freshman kid that i can't stand.

if anyone finds out who got Mushnik tell me.

people annoy me.

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 23:27:41 GMT

ok people. if u really do miss me then fucking invite me somewhere when ur going out with everyone. jesus i barely fucking see u then u get a chance to see me and u forget? don't give me the whole oh we forgot about u cuz u haven't been with us in a while. kiss my ass.

zack, kiss my ass as well.

on a lighter note. i made a myspace. why? cuz i'm a loser like that. link is in my profile bitches.

To the cast:

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 03:54:16 GMT

To the Cast and Production Staff of Moon Over Buffalo:

thank u all so much for this wonderful experience. i never had so much fun doing a show. u all helped me improve my acting ability so much and helped me grow as a person as well.

Dave: sir sweats a lot! lol it's called powder let's invest shall we? i'm here to clean ur pool. BUT I DON'T HAVE A POOL! bow chicka bow wowwww lol porno movies forever

Georgeanna: omg great times this year. i wasn't a brat to u! YAY! lol my whole family is in love with u. thanks sooo much for defending me against the asshole named joe. THROUGH THE OTHER DOOR!

Dan: thanks for being so mean to me! lol yes i know i'm not funny :( tear tear but oh well. thanks for helpin me with my technique with things.

Kate F: EAT YOUR RICE! lmao we had such good times this whole show. U LYING WHORE! U SAID U COULDN'T HAVE PIZZA! lolol love u bebe thanks for stickin up for me against the asshole named joe also.

Taylor: what can i say. i freakin love u. u say the funniest things that just make my day. good times waiting for our parents who care enough to be on time right lol thanks for tying me up everynight.

Kevin: our big scene was the best. i believe we stole the show with that one. we had fun backstage yelling at stage crew for random things. thankssss for helpin me wrap my costumesss!

Kate H: GRAN-MAMA! our lip-synching to the scenes were amazing. we could so be george and richard. oops did dave and kevin see that? i love uuuu

Sam: ahhh love u woman. thanks soo much for helpin me change. without u general patton would never be on stage. thanks for fixing my costumes and my hair too u hairstylist u. by the way. ur marrying me.

thanks to everyone who came. u all made me feel special when u cheered me on! YAY! lol ok i'm done ranting. toodles! and if u didn't see the show .. u suck.

hehehe

Wed, 27 Oct 2004 00:07:22 GMT

well joe seems like no one likes u enough to agree with ur anonymous postings. i always IM u? lmao u always IM me asshole and i tell u to leave me alone and u get pissed. now ur just lying.

and my brother said it right. "grow a fucking pair" instead of being anonymous let's try talking to my face now shall we pussyboy?

anyways. so just got over pneumonia for a week. kinda blew. takin meds and stuff now. workin like a charm. and stuff at rehearsal is going pretty good besides the fact that joe badmouthed me while i wasn't there. once again, grow a pair.

school kinda blows. mr ruck is an ass. he sent a progress report home for homeworks he didn't assign. way ta go. no wonder u teach theology. ur not qualified for anything but saying god is love.

hmm what else. maybe goin to a party at leah's sunday if i know more people goin. i think that's about it.

yeah.

COME SEE MOON OVER BUFFALO AT ST ANTHONY'S HIGH SCHOOL!
Thursday, November 4th at 7:00
Friday, November 5th at 8:00
Saturday, November 6th at 8:00.
Cast:
George - Dave Morissey
Charlotte - Georgeanna Piazza
Paul - Dan O'Connor
Roz - Kate Ferguson
Howard - ME!
Ethel - Kate Haggerty
Richard - Kevin Black
Eileen - Taylor Dever (the star is tappin taylor)

people suck

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 00:04:49 GMT

it's friday, and let's read people's away messages shall we?

out.. be back laterrrr <3
out..
OUTTT call the cell XO
school...outttt
gettin rdy 2go out
P...A...R..T....Y? beacuse i wannnaaa
outt...celL
watching 2 movies ... bbl

thanks for askin me to go guys .. nice friends i have.

how to: rebuild self-esteem

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 19:42:56 GMT

self-esteem (n.)
Pride in oneself; self-respect.

that's as it is defined in a dictionary. if you search me you will find barely an ounce of self-esteem. so how am i going to gain it? by becoming the best in everything i do.

i want to be the best singer in my school. i want to be the best actor. i want to be the best dancer. i want to be the best student. i want to be the best dresser. i want to be the best looking. i want to have pride. i want to be able to walk with my head high.

i know this will be hard to achieve and it sounds stupid and it sounds cocky and arrogant. but this is what i want. i know that this will make me happy. i'm going to try my best to be the best possible. i wanna be known in my school. i wanna stand out as someone that's the best rather than a mediocre person.

this is gonna be hard, but i'm gonna put my mind to it and try my hardest. i know i can do it if i try hard enough. and it will be even better with my friends' support. so wish me luck guys. i'm on my way to the top of the hill and i know i can make it if you guys help me.

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 13:54:43 GMT

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hehehe yay my birthday is FINALLY here so here's the deal. i had a family party last night and was really happy cuz i won $35 playing texas holdem along with all the birthday money. YEAH BIRTHDAY LUCK! didn't get all my presents that i asked for ... actually none besides what my parents gave me but oh well! i got money. i got: an iPod, a new cell phone, and tickets to Avenue Q! oh and an outfit that katie caitlin and nora bought me.

seeing Avenue Q later on tonight. this'll be a fun evening. but i won't get home till later so i won't get much sleep for school.

umm excited much? i think so ...

surveyyyyy stolen from laurennn

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 22:59:57 GMT

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.:->> Girls <<-:.
best ::	too many
enemy ::	danielle zito sticks up ring finger .. we're in a fight
nicest ::	mia
meantest ::	lauren lamarca is a bitch
loudest ::	lauren lamarca!
quietest ::	taylor
bravest ::	theadora without a doubt
shyest ::	taylor maybe ..
funnest ::	nina
most mature ::	katie
most immature ::	maddie! lmao
most fun to shop with ::	they all areeee
preppiest ::	hmm .. iuno
goth ::	well rachel is the closest to it but i'm not really friends with goths
prettiest ::	umm .. no comment cuz if i say someone all of them will shoot me
smartest ::	liz olivieri or corinne
known longest ::	t
newest ::	umm ... i honestly don't know
friend before, not now ::	danielle zito cuz we're in a fight
wish you didnt know ::	steph ... mwahahah
wish you were closer to ::	all the dance girlies
best fashion ::	all my friends can dress!
riches ::	umm .. no idea
cutest ::	caitlin
tallest ::	nora! 6 frickn 1!
shortest ::	between liz rachel and thea
most high maintanance ::	no clue ..
cautious ::	umm they're all naughty girls!
.:-> Guys <-:.
best ::	umm .. iuno
nicest ::	matt lyons
meanest ::	walter
loudest ::	flynn or walter
quietest ::	erik
bravest ::	they're all brave
shyest ::	erik
funnest ::	they all suck at making jokes lmao
most mature ::	they're all immature
most immature ::	see above
most fun to shop with ::	umm they don't know how to shop
preppiest ::	none are preppy
goth ::	none are goths .. or i don't think so ..
hottest ::	ickkyyyy they're grossss
smatest ::	this kid i'm not really friends with is pretty smart
known longest ::	walter unfortunado
newest ::	umm iuno
friend before, not now ::	umm ... none?
wish you didnt know ::	anthony lmao
wish you were closer to ::	iuno i don't usually get close with guys
best fashion ::	they don't know how to dress lolol
richest ::	no clue
cutest ::	once again .. they're gross
tallest ::	walter prob
shortest ::	i don't like short guys .. they scare me ... IT'S CALLED PUBERTY! HTI IT!
most high maintanance ::	me hehe i'm my own friend
cautious ::	me once again heheheh
.:-> Associate Your Friends With <-:.
apple ::	cioffi cuz she's a kiss ass!
bitch ::	danielle zito .. slut
tampon ::	thea cuz she asked me for one in mass
napkin ::	wtf?!
flashlight ::	god mwahahha
kitty ::	ummmmm iuno
ball ::	walter .. cuz he plays football with himself
condom ::	lauren lamarca cuz she's a slut
moon ::	well not friend but my cousin jessica cuz she has a round face lmaolmao
water ::	meeee cuz i don't drink soda
tight ::	umm .. ew ... but liz hahahaha
flower ::	nina .. why? i don't know
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that was fun. anyway went bowling with zito heather and dawn yesterday. quite fun. but me and zito are now in a fight. *sticks up ring finger* i won cuz they all suck at bowling.

i made the play at school so that's always fun and dandy. taylor and dave made it too sooo that's always cool. go sophomoressssss. really boring entry cuz i've been doin jackshit but i know u still wanna comment on the surveeeeeeey.

random lyrics from broadway musicals

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 17:20:53 GMT

Aida:
Nothing is an accident
We are free to have it all
We are what we want to be
It's in ourselves to rise or fall

We all live in extravagant times
playing games we can't all win
Unintened emotional crimes
Take some out, take others in

This should have been my time
It's over, it never began
I closed my eyes to so much for so long
and I no longer can

Avenue Q:
I don't know how I know,
But I'm gonna find
My purpose.
I don't know where
I'm gonna look,
But I'm gonna find
My purpose.

You gotta go after the things you want
While you're still in your prime.

Hairspray:
There's a road
We must travel
There's a promise
We must make
'Cause the riches
Will be plenty
Worth the risk
And chances that we take
There's a dream
In the future
There's a struggle
We have yet to win
Use that pride
In our hearts
To lift us up
To tomorrow

Wicked:
Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!
It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!

so yeah love those songs and i think these quotes from them are really good. thanks for the comments guys. i think it's funny how alli didn't comment though lmao. but whateverrrr ... wanna comment again? ok!

ughh bad night

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 01:24:38 GMT

heyy so yeah love the way people find one thing as a joke and make fun of it for the rest of the day? gets kind of annoying even when it's not even close to funny. there's a saying i like to use and i'm gonna paraphrase it.
"if you don't like the way something is done, do it urself."

i was giving directions today and the people i was giving directions to blamed getting lost on me even though i didn't tell the person to go a certain way. then the whole time they were nitpicking at my directions even when i got directions from someone else to get somewhere. NOT MY FRICKEN FAULT WE GOT LOST IF I'M NOT THE ONE WHO GAVE THE DIRECTIONS!

ughh so that was annoying me. i was supposed to have a nice time today but i didn't. it all just sucks whenever something like this happens cuz i was waiting for this the whole week. i was so excited. then it all comes crashing down and i get pissed off. then people wonder why. they say "ian you can't take a joke." oh i can take a joke. to a certain extent. when it becomes up to the point when that's the whole conversation that we have then i get pissed off. if the only words that come out of ur mouth to me are about this joke, then it's both not funny and annoying. people need to get this through their heads.

if people think i have no sense of humor, ur totally wrong. anyone who knows me know that i have as much of a sense of humor as the next guy. it's just when it comes to annoying little jokes i wanna kill that person. "oh but ian i was just teasing you." teasing means doing it once or twice at the moment then ur done with it. not once or twice per second.

it's not like anyone's gonna care bout this cuz no one reads this anyway besides alli maybe. but whatever i'm done with this entry. comment. oh wait only alli will.

??

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 23:48:41 GMT

heyy soo basically went to the beach today with liz corinne pat doug paul josh greg and andrew. quite fun. bees everywhere but other than that it was pretty good. we binged on ice cream. and then me greg and andrew had a jumping contest off of the swings but me and corinne had the best time on the swings and playing uno. then my dad came a lil late so corinne waited with me since she's my bestestest buddy and we talked a lot. she said she'll even see if she can visit my school!! YAY!!

school starts monday but i have orientation thursday. so it's all good i'm gonna visit the smithtown people.

i'm so tired right now. and confused. the whole day and situation right now is confusing but i'm not gonna post it just cuz people i don't wanna read this might.

so yeah comment guys.

yaay!

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 01:48:01 GMT

pat's home!! hehe he came home today for the labor day party but he's leaving tomorrow. but that's ok he's home right now! lol

soo went to a party last night at kev's (who i haven't seen in a million years) with liz rachel pat eric greg joe and some other people i didn't know. it was ok. massive amounts of west nile breeding in there. it was fun though. i haven't seen these people in a while cuz i go to st a's now. but it's all good. greg threw liz in the pool cuz she decided it would be fun to throw water on me and him. i would've thrown her in if i had strength. but no =( the gym has failed me.

partaay today. it was good. drove in the car with martin and had a near death experience. it was ok though cuz almost doesn't count. played holdem and i came in second to last. we played for real money. so i lost 5 bucks but it was my uncle's anyway so that's ok hehe. i beat someone!!

rob signed on yesterday so i ripped him a new asshole. he deserved it and i think what i wanna do to him deserves him to die too but people are saying it's messed up and i'm just sinking to his level but whatever. i'll still think about it.

school starts the 13th and i have orientation thursday so i gotta get prepped for dress code again. ughh uniform and all. lovelyyy. whatever i'm a sophomore now i get to be a stuck up asshole. booyah!

anyone know how to get to the coldstone's in hton village? tell me if u do cuz i might be goin there friday.

ehh decent day

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 00:10:28 GMT

hey guyss.

sooo last night i was trying to gather people to come with me to whitman but no one wanted to/could go so i'm probably gonna end up goin monday. gettin excited though =)

went to the gym today and then took the dogs to get groomed and what not. nina liz lauren and tee came over for like 10 minutes. strange people. nina decided to spray my deoderant everywhere and at people so my crotch now smells like right guard extreme. then liz played my music and i raped nina. then they all had to go and i was like poo cuz i've been bored.

i have orientation in a week. so i get my schedule, take school picture/id picture, get books, and fill out some cards. always fun. i don't start school till the 13th unlike most schools who start tuesday or wednesday mwahahah. so yeah i get some more time for summer reading yaaay.

umm what else ... oh dance starts on the 13th too. gotta work on my technique so i can get into senior jazz technique class. but right now i'm still in every other senior competition class cept tap cuz i suck at/hate tap. and i'm in the senior jazz funk class so that's good. and i get to assist this year. a jazz class and maybe a hip hop class. so yaaay. and i haven't seen my dance girls in a while. well actually i saw nicole, heather and wren on monday at viper and i saw courtney the next day for 2 seconds while nicole picked up her phone from my house. but other than that i haven't seen them. =(

leave comments pleease i want more than one commenter on this entry lol.

ahh didn't update in a while!

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 19:03:41 GMT

hey guys i'm back. here's the upDIZZATE!

soo took pat to college on saturday. he's got a reeeeeeally nice dorm. he's in a triple but only one of his roomates was there. he's really clean so that's muy bueno. then we saw hairspray (amazing!). it was soo funny and the musack was great.

soo went to viper last night with heather and nicole. wren ended up being there too. so yeah it was really fun and i touched 17 asses. oh yes. so we were dancin up a storm cuz hey we're dancers lol and people kept on going through where we were and it got really fricken annoying cuz it was so croweded. so yeah that was fun too.

aaaaaaaaaand scene.

ahh!!

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 20:15:31 GMT

ok people here's the dilleo. my parents aren't holding up their end of a deal *poutie face*. i gave them my digicam so that i could get an ipod and a new phone. but that hasn't happened yet ... *pout face again*.

i'm trying to get to see Aida again. this time with lauren cioffi cuz she never saw it yet and it's closing soon ... =/. i wanna see it again cuz adam pascal = amazing and it's such a great show. so sad too. so gotta convince my parents to buy me tickets cuz my dad's like u already saw it so it's a waste to see it again. i'm like umm no. anyways that's what's going on with that.

school is starting soon, and i still didn't do my summer reading. i really should start. a tree grows in brooklyn is soo long. ethan frome isn't that long though. so that won't take up too much time.

DANCE PEOPLE: when's registration and do u think i could sign up to assist? =/ i wanna get some of that done cuz it's good for college if u have that done. so inform meeeeeeee =)

ok i'm done.

back from bahamas

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 15:35:52 GMT

hey guys i'm back from the bahamas. not a really great trip for me just cuz i was under 18 and all of my cousins cept jeff and jess are over 18 so they went to the 18 and over club and they did all the things that we had to be accompanied by a parent and stuff. so at night when my cousins went to the club jeff usually went into his room to read and what not and jess didn't wanna go to the club that we were allowed into cuz she doesn't like clubs so i got bored went to my room and slept.

the highlights of the trip were dinner and jet skiing. every night at dinner we were the loudest table in the room and we were laughing soo hard that one night literally everyone at the table was crying. the first night at dinner i was allergic to both the things i ordered. shrimp scampi (the shrimp was in the shell so i was getting itchy and my throat started closing) and warm chocolate cake (best tasting thing ever once i had the guy get me one without nuts on the top of it). so that was pretty good.

we went jet skiing at cocoay, the boats private island. it was soo fun. i went with my cousin hana and we were the lightest people on the thing so we were flying all over the place. i even almost pulled her off a couple times. so that was fun and then afterward my hair was all up from the wind and i looked like i was stuck in the 70's.

so yesterday i didn't do much. it was my dogs bday so we had a mini party kind of (my family rocks i know.) and then i just went to sleep.

i know u wanna comment =)

feeling much better =)

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 19:12:13 GMT

hey guys i'm feeling a lot better now [thank u corinne and liz].

so i was bored yesterday, went to the gym. lifted .2 pounds and was watching all the people lifting like ... 200. i was like hehehe i could SOOO do that. not. afterwards liz tells me we're going to corinne's to hang out and i haven't seen the two of them all summer and i barely see them now that i'm at st a's. so i was like okely dokely.

got to corinne's and we all exchange hugs cuz we're like I MISS UU and all that good junk. go upstairs to her middle floor where her piano is and decide to play with the sounds. quite fun hehe. we made a machine gun kill a bunch of people screaming and liz was having some fun pushing the buttons. then liz found my dance shoes in my bag and we decide to dance. we do all the positions in ballet cuz we're bored and then i decided to show off my flexibility and do an extension and split and liz tried to and corinne killed her.

so we go into the basement and call pat some more and liz is a lesbian with a deep voice. i killed corinne with the pillow sausage and she got all freaked out and liz was laughing for about 20 minutes. why? we don't know ... so i go upstairs to corinne's room and get the 8th grade yearbook so we can look at all the people. corinne and liz were playing mario kart. we were looking at all the people we missed and corinne was telling us a marc monroig story and we thought it was the cutiest thing ever.

then we tried eating pretzels with no hands and only liz was successful one time. we decided to call pat a thousand more times with liz being a lesbian and it was quite fun. i wonder how many messages we left him ...

anywaysss after that liz left so me and corinne cleaned the basement a lil bit then my dad came so i had to go. fun day =)

and liz is still a lesbian.

why so depressed?

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 03:44:56 GMT

yeah once again depressing entry people. if u don't wanna read it don't cuz i don't want you all to be like ok he sucks.

so didn't really do anything today. listened and sang to the Aida soundtrack. i listened throughout all the songs and found that there were only 2 people who found happiness in the end, even though there was misfortune in the way. i mean, nehebka was the first character to die. that had to suck. then zoser had to have his son die. the king of nubia had to know that his daughter was buried alive. the pharoah dies unhappy. merob is killed by an egyptian soldier. amneris is faced with a life of knowing that her love died and he led her on. but aida and radames, the two characters in love with eachother, die. yeah this is so bad right? wrong. they died together.

these two were buried alive in a tomb together. relying on eachother for strength they run out of air and die. together. then they find eachother in another life and fall in love once again.

will i ever have that? everyone has a big fear. mine happens to be dying alone. i don't wanna be one of those people who are alone all their life sitting on their porch with a pet as their only companion. i want someone to have a relationship with. maybe later on in life someone to grow old with, but there's no one out there. i need help. i don't wanna be living life this way.

another depressing entry ... don't read it if u don't wanna

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 01:08:17 GMT

hey guys ... this is gonna be another depressing entry so if u don't wanna hear it anymore don't read it.

ok so basically i'm going to add on to yesterdays about my cousins. when they got back no one informed me cuz i was playing monopoly with my other cousin. i went downstairs talked to them for a little but they still didn't know i was upset about them leaving me. someone knocks at the door and it's the domino's guy. i ask my brother where my food is and he said he didn't order me anything. i find out later that they didn't even think about me when they were ordering. (btw, my brother knows how much i love domino's cuz he gets pissed off everytime i ask him to order it for me.) so got really upset about that and went up into my room.

i hear from them that they're going downstairs into the basement to eat, but they didn't tell me directly. i was eaves dropping. that got me a lil more angry cuz no one told me about this.

so i'm pissed off and they go in the hot tub without me cuz i don't even wanna talk to them and then i go to sleep a lil after 1 cuz i was watching SNL. i wake up every now and then cuz they came inside and were talking and laughing really loudly where i was cuz i had to sleep in the living room with them. i fall asleep for a lil while and then they turn on the TV in the room where i was at around 3 to watch music videos. i was soo mad cuz i was dead tired and the night before i only had 4 hours of sleep. then the sprinklers came on and i couldn't sleep anymore cuz they kept me awake. but my cousins went to sleep. i was up from then till about 6:30 crying about how they pissed me off the whole day and then they wouldn't even let me sleep. i fell asleep and my mom woke me up at 8:30 to go to the city to watch Aida. now depressing love story:

when i was watching Aida i almost cried. these people who were able to find love so easily and be able to die together just made me think: am i ever gonna be able to have that? will i ever find love? i mean i've never even been in any type of relationship or even on a date.

sorry for the depressing entries lately people but i just haven't been having a great summer ...

ughh ...

Sun, 08 Aug 2004 00:29:05 GMT

yeah loving the way all my cousin's left me here to go somewhere else .. some went to quizno's and the others went to my cousin's new apartment and the flat out said they weren't gonna take me ... and i tried to play it off like it didn't matter but it did. i'm always the one left out. it sucks. no matter what there's one thing about me that makes me the outsider and leaves me out of everyone else's things to do.

i know i'm sounding very pessimistic and very depressing and everything and people are sick of hearing about my complaints but u guys don't realize how much it hurts. i try to use my humor outside of this so that i don't seem that way cuz i don't want everyone else to be annoyed with me and stop hanging out with me cuz i'm never happy. the truth is i'm usually not too happy. there's always at least 1 or 2 things that ruin my day. from relationships to just plain life. am i wrong in feeling this way?

a lil over a month left till school starts and i'm starting to think that my life is gonna be a lot worse then. i'm gonna be left out as usual and made fun of because of some tiny detail and it's gonna make the year suck. i'm thinking that for every 3 people that are nice to me there's gonna be 1 or 2 people that hate me because of either who i am or what i do. it's not fair. "but ian life's not fair" yes yes yes i know i've heard it all before. but u guys don't have to deal with stuff i have to deal with.

there's a bunch of things on my mind right now that i can't right cuz one of my cousin's might read this or uncles and aunts for that matter and then they'll tell my parents and then my parents will ruin my life. this is supposed to be something i can write about but i can't because of the ignorant people in the world who don't give a damn about my feelings. i hope they realize what they're doing to people like me.

so basically this has been a depressing entry cuz i've had a depressing day ... and summer for that matter. didn't get to hang out with any of my friends. keep on postponing parties. suckin up a storm at dance. didn't get to be in any shows. kinda blew ...

am i wrong at all?

wow ...

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 02:08:30 GMT

in a deep depression right now ... this definitly sucks ...

so first off me and we'll just say "R" aren't going to well. R is never online and when R is ... it's at like 1 in the morning. so i wanted to meet up with R on monday or sometime this week before i go to florida and of course R isn't online for me to talk to R and R hasn't given me R's number. so no way of contacting R and it really blew cuz i won't be going out next week.

second ... my cousin's were just here. and i'm really close with them usually. anna and jess. well i'm close with them when it's just me and anna or just me and jess. when they're together i'm just a third wheel going along with them. i'm always left out with this shit and it pisses me off. it makes me feel unwanted and that people have a better time when i'm not around. and they wonder why i'm always shying away from them now ... err ...

then now i'm having so much trouble at dance. i can't even get the basic things down and it makes me feel so stupid. everyone else is able to do doubles and second position turns and all this shit and i'm sitting there losing my balance after a fricken single. it just sucks

in a nut shell ... WORST WEEK EVER!

surveyy

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 18:57:30 GMT

Shows
Which Broadway show is your favorite because of music?: ummm ... probably Pajama Game ... i didn't really like the show but i loved the music
Which Broadway show is your favorite because of plot?: Wicked most deff
Which Broadway show is your favorite because of everything?: Avenue Q lmao
Which Broadway show is your favorite because of its stars?: The Boy From Oz
Which Broadway show do you detest the most?: even though i didn't see it Cats ... it looks pointless to me
Any others?: no not really didn't really see too many shows
Which other ones do you like a lot?: well Lion King and Mamma Mia! were awesome
Songs
Which Broadway song is your favorite because of music?: i usually listen to lyrics more
Which Broadway song is your favorite because of lyrics?: on my own from les mis
Favorite song in general (not Broadway)?: well i only listen to broadway except Everytime by Britney Spears (yeah shut up lol)
Favorite all-time Broadway song?: as long as ur mine - wicked
Do you sing any of these at auditions?: nope nope
Can you sing?: yes
Do you like to sing?: yes
Do you like to sing in front of people?: yes
Do you like to do theatre?: umm ... chya!
Musical, dramatic, or comedic theatre?: all 3
Parts You've Played
What's your favorite role that you've played?: Rodger from Grease
Why?: cuz i loved his song
Least favorite?: i haven't done that many shows lol
Why?: no commentttttt
What is your dream role?: i have waaaaay too many
Why?: because there's too many shows i wanan be in
Any others?: wow i hate follow up questions
Would you rather be onstage or offstage?: ON!
Why?: cuz i hate being offstage
Are you currently playing a role? (in what?): nope nopee cuz my fair lady can kiss my ass
Your Opinion
An overrated musical:: Annie
An overrated song:: Tommorrow .. yeah i agreed with linds on that lol
An overrated composer/playwright:: rodgers and hammerstein ... everyone thinks they're great cept me
Techies:: annoying much?
Prima Donnas:: don't get me started
Stage moms:: FACE IT UR KID SUCKS!
Child actors:: most are stuck up
Off-Broadway:: awesome!
A musical that should have a sequel:: umm Mamma Mia!
A musical that should NOT have a sequel:: Chicago ... it's great how it is
A musical that exists for no purpose:: iunoo ...
A musical that should not have been made into a musical:: well sound of music should just have different songs ..
Simplicity or extravagance?: depends ... both can be good
Which is most important in the technical aspect: sound, lights, set/props?: they're all important ... but the people who run them suck
If You Were In Drag... (not if you were the opposite sex, but in drag)
Would you perform on Broadway?: .....
What role would you play (in what)?: .......
Would you reveal to the audience that you were not what you seemed to be?: .........
Random Questions
Favorite quote?: don't have one
Best ensemble you've ever performed with?: PJ GAME BABY!
Have you ever met your significant other through theatre?: no .. not yet at least
If so, were you playing the star-crossed lovers?: what about if not?
What's a Broadway song that makes you cringe?: the sound of music ... *cringe*
About how many shows have you been in?: like ... 5 lol
When was your first professional show?: i wasn't in a mainstage ... but my first show was in 3rd grade
Do you share a name with a Broadway character?: no no one likes the name Ian =(
Do you want to do theatre as a career? If not, then what?: yes definitly
Ever been robbed of a part unfairly? Details!: my fair lady END OF STORY
Which is Worse?
Casting kids who can't really act but can sing, or vice versa?: cant really sing but act is worse.. because if u can't sing u shouldn't be doing a musical
Being off pitch, or discovering your underthings are showing?: being off pitch! the underwear thing is just embarassing
Getting boo'd at curtain call, or having people leave at intermission?: getting boo'd at
Being the only on-pitch kid in a group of off pitch people, or vice versa?: off pitch kid
Being an unappriciated main part, or unappriciated small role?: un appriciated small role
Do You Believe...
About the M-word? (Scottish play): kinda
You never say Good Luck on opening night?: nope nope always break a leg
Bad luck to speak the last line of the play anytime before opening night?: never heard that one ... but i won't do it now
Shouldn't whistle while you're in the theater?: whistle? iunooo
That there is a ghost haunting most theaters?: i don't think so
This or That
Carrie the Musical or Superman the Musical?: Carrie!
Cats or Les Miserables?: les mis
Lights or Sound?: lights probably
Publicity or Props?: publicity
Costumes or Make-Up?: u need both
Lots of lines or One Big Solo?: one big solo
Bye Bye Birdie or Grease?: grease!! derrr
42nd Street or Thoroughly Modern Millie?: 42nd street
Zombie Prom or Little Shop of Horrors?: little shop
Neil Simon or Oscar Wilde?: neil simon
Wicked or The Wiz?: wicked
Once Upon a Mattress or Into the Woods?: into the woods
Oliver or Annie?: they both suck
Aida or Camelot?: aida
Beauty and the Beast or Lion King?: lion king
Sutton Foster or Susan Egan?: don't know them :(
The Music Man or My Fair Lady?: umm iuno
Cinderella or South Pacific?: south pacific
Hairspray or Mamma Mia?: they're both awesome
Rent or The Producers?: producers
Fiddler on the Roof or Gypsy?: didn't see them yet
The Sound of Music or The King and I?: they both suck
The Boy from Oz or Taboo?: boy from oz
Stomp or Blast?: i only saw blast so blast
Annie Get Your Gun or Oklahoma?: i heard annie get ur gun was good but i saw oklahoma ... hmmm
Jekyll and Hyde or Phantom of the Opera?: jekyll and hyde
Avenue Q or The Last Five Years?: AVENUE Q!! it sucks to be u!
Pirates of Penzance or Funny Girl?: didn't see them
Chicago or Cabaret?: chicago
If Your Life was a Broadway Musical...
What would it be?: funny/dramatic/odd ...
Who would you play?: myself?
Who would be your costars?: my family
Who would be your supporting cast?: my friends
Who'd run sound?: the usualy geeks
Lights?: see above answer
Props?: see about answer
Publicity?: we all would
Music director/conductor?:
Director?: myself
More random stuff...
If you would write a Broadway musical, what would it be called?: iuno ... this takes some thought
What would it be about?: iuno .. probably high school stereotypes
Would you do music, lyrics, or book or get someone else to do it?: get someone to help me
If you could be any actor/actress right now, who would you be?: iuno .. there's a lot of good ones
Any special connections with any shows?: no =(
What would you like to see made into a Broadway musical?: FRIENDS! hehe

yeah .. umm ... TIRED MUCH?

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 20:29:28 GMT

alrighty so i had a very eventful weekend

first off i had to dance at Kings Park day with my studio (yeah KPDC) and i had to be there at 11 to set up. so we put the floor down and stuff in the 80 degree weather and then i had to do my tap dance. yeah u can't hear the taps whatsoever on the floor we had but we had to use it cuz otherwise our taps get ruined on the concrete. then i got dressed again and did the hip hop dance and almost passed out cuz it was 10000000 degrees. so after that i went to jersey.

so my cousin lisa graduated college so we were like yaaaaaaay and decided to party for it. the only other person my age there was my cousin jackie so we played babysitter for all the little kids. then i got home at like 1 in the morning.

so didn't fall asleep till 3 cuz i was wide awake and i had to wake up at 6 to walk my dogs. then i went back to sleep and woke up at 2 in the afternoon hehe :) so after that i made myself some lunch and watched bruce almighty.

so plans for monday anyone? sooo bored and i wanna go out before i DRIVE TO FLORIDA on thursday ... yeah my parents don't believe in airplanes lmao but me and my brother are flying back next monday so yeah.

umm anyone know about any auditions coming up? i'm gonna be really bored this summer i think i wanna do a musical.

YAY!

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 03:48:30 GMT

hokay so lauren fixed up my journal (awesome i know) lol THANKS LAUR! don't u love broadway in the 50's? so perrrrty ...

so basically i had my bio regents today and it was decent. some parts were kinda hard but other than that it was fine like "what pathogen leads to AIDS" HIV OF COURSE! lolol

so summer vaca '04 has officially begun! i'm a sophmore now what what! i'm a bitch lmao all the freshman next year are gonna hate me ... but whatever they can kiss my ass.

i dropped outta my fair lady! what whaaat lol there was 49 kids in the cast 34 of which in the ensemble and 7 of which are over 12 years old ... hmmm unproffesional much? yeah so that sucks so CLUCK THEM I'M OUTTA THERE

ummmmmmmmmmmmm yeah i'm done now.

p.s. lauren lamarca is my lover ... what?!?